Tug of War

So anyway........ Do you ever feel like you're being pulled in too many different directions? That's how I feel right now concerning my Instagram account. (I bet you thought this post was going to be deep. Nope.) Aside from following a few of my friends, I follow a few fitness accounts, and plus sized fashionistas. 
The plus sized bloggers/fashionistas are all about loving and embracing your fullness, and that's definitely something I strongly believe in, considering I'm a 12-14. It's really important for women to have positive thoughts about themselves, because hey, we can't all look like Nia Long. That doesn't mean we can't be fabulous.
The fitness accounts I follow are mostly women who have gone from plus-sized to not plus sized. The reason these accounts interest me is because I'm on a journey to become healthier, and I need motivation and information about just how to do that. Everyone has a different routine and different goals, so it's good to get different perspectives.
I've never been a skinny chic, and I've never been morbidly obese. Just always somewhere in between. I don't lament the extra sexiness I carry around, because all things considered, I think I wear it fairly well. Thank God for height! My weight is spread vertically, as opposed to horizontally. I genuinely believe about 30lbs of my weight is directly in my head. Like literally, not figuratively.  I have a big head, but I digress.
I'm on a fitness journey because I don't want to die from something that can mostly be prevented through diet and exercise. Ain't nobody got time for diabetes and hypertension. I have to remember that I can't be fooled by the amount of self confidence I have, and forget what I'm trying to do. At the end of the day, it's not just about looking good in a cute outfit. We plus sized gals are proof that you can do that at any size. I do know that reality has affected me way more than I'd like to admit. I don't think you have to be sad or unhappy with who you are to want to get healthier. Getting older and watching your metabolism bottom out is very motivational. That's where I am now.
It's not that we plus sized gals just sit around eating whatever the hell we want, and we don't care about being healthy. We work out too. I don't want this post to sound like I think all  plus sized girls are unhealthy. I just know that when I eat better, weight comes off. So that's what I'm expecting to happen as this journey progresses.
I'm just going to end this with a quote.

"I don't believe the word "healthy" means small-framed... it just means taking care of what one does in terms of body, mind and spirit; getting to a place where you aren't worried (especially about the body forsaking you bc of what you eat) ... to be healthy = to make conscious decisions of what you do to maintain your life here on this planet!"~ Louise Hammonds